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Lately I've been kind of down. :( Just a little depressed. You may have even noticed I haven't been posting every day. The reason I've been sad is that the house that my family was planning on moving into for the last three months- well, the bank won't give us a loan to buy it, since the house is a "fixer-upper." Which breaks my heart. In my head, I've been feathering this new nest all summer, planning out paint colors, and furniture placement, and decor. And now the dream is crumbling before my eyes. We're gunna keep trying, seeing if there's any loopholes or anything, ANY way that we can get this house.

And off topic (but I'm getting somewhere with this) I blogged about my love of the diaries (and photo staging of the diaries) at atseoul.com. And you may have noticed that I was being a little cynical about it. As much as I love (love love love love) these diaries and the photos of them, I thought they were a little unrealistic, at least for my life.

Well they really inspired me to make some changes. One of the major beliefs that has driven my life the past year or so is the idea that if there's something in your life that you aren't happy about, change it! I know I can't change the fact that the bank won't give us a loan, but letting out some of my creativity has really helped me feel less depressed. I've started an art journal because I was inspired by the diaries at atseoul.

And today I spent the ENTIRE day cleaning my room, rearranging all my little knick-knacks, and even my posters. I had been itching to decorate my "new room" for months, so I took that energy out on my current room. And it feels great.

I'm still disappointed about not getting my dream house. (although still hopeful that we can work something out) But I've been finding ways to change my life to be something better.

 this is the opening spread. kind of an "introductory" page. i made another page too, about my obsession with the korean soap opera Playful Kiss, but i'll post that one later.

 I have so much jewelry.. SO much. I went through it today and sorted out the things I wear VS the things I don't. I'm planning on listing the 4 pound shoebox full of unwanted jewelry on etsy as supplies for reconstruction. anyone interested?

and yes, i finaly posted my latest creation. this is kevin. he needs a home. he's now listed in my etsy shop, for anyone who's ever wanted a cute little owl buddy.  ;)

good news and bad news

ok ill start with the bad news:

• having my wisdom teeth taken out was just as aweful as i was expecting.
• my cheeks are swolen up super huge, so i cant talk
• the lady at the dentist office made me take off my lucky bracelet that my buddhist monk friend gave me 5 months ago (havent taken it off since i got it)
• i cant eat anything
• my macbook (aka my-precious-baby-that-means-more-to-me-than-anything)  is broken and i have to wait a week to get it back *screams*
• the house that my parents and i are looking to move into has a huge mold problem in the basement

but you  know what, im an optimist. bad news doesnt get me down. for real. here's the good news:

• the worst of my wisdom teeth pain in over
• my cheek swelling will go down in the next couple days, and its a good excuse to take some time off work
• my lucky bracelet wasnt too tight, so i could slip it off instead of cut it off (its the embroidery floss kind) and the first thing i did when i regained conciousness was put it back on
• in a couple days, ill be able to eat whatever i want
• my dad took my mac in and he agreed to pay $50 to have them save everything on the hard drive (which was nice because my dad's a bit of a penny pincher) 
• other than the mold, the house we are looking at is awesome and i really hope we get it!!

cant wait to eat food again! mmm..

i love my computer too much to ever rest a mug on it..

here's hoping for a bigger backyard and a walk in closet!

(all found via weheartit.com)

let's talk more about this house. right now i live in a tiny house with my parents. tiny tiny. they let me have the biggest bedroom, since they know i have tons of craft supplies and need room to store it and work on it. its still not enough space, though. this house that we are looking at is just about perfect. theres some damage, like holes in walls and broken doors, and or course the mold, but its nothing my family hasnt takled before. my dad buys rundown homes and fixes them up to rent, kind of as a side job. so this should be a piece of cake. its much much bigger, and it has a huge yard. its in a quiet neighborhood, across from a park, and only 5 minutes farther away from my work. lets cross out fingers that the bank accepts our offer!

i havent done anything crafty in a while.. i hate that. i think theres some drawing and sewing in my near future.